Mess.

So many thoughts in my head, yet I can't seem to bring out the courage I once had, to voice them out.

When the fire in your soul dims, what is it that you do to reignite the flames?

Lost, trapped, and bewildered.

I don't want to admit that I am all or one of the above.

I don't want to admit losing myself in the midst of chasing after another.

I don't want to spend hours and hours, in the deathly loop of "wishing you were here"

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I want to run, to scream, to feel free again.

My soul yearns to be bright.

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I don't want to settle, I hunger for more.

I crave for what I do not have, and may not ever hold in my hands.

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I've tried, time and time again.

Chances are, the window's closed.

The time has passed and I've thrown myself out there.

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Lost, trapped, and bewildered.

I want to dance in my dreams, where everything's sweet.

I want to dance, to lose the sense of time.

I want to dance, slowly with love - for myself.

"I want to scream"

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The deafening thoughts.

The suffocating anger.

The muffled screams.

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Can someone please save me,

I'm scared of what's happening to me.